I lost my pen

I lost my pen. I searched for it in all the places, I couldn’t find it. I guess I lost my pen. Can I write anything any more? Ah! I can just buy another a better one, But wait, I lost my pen. How does it matter? Will I die? No. Then whats the problem? Can’t I write anymore? No. Is it going to stop me from writing anything? No. You know what I lost my pen. Which is absolutely fine! Really!? 

I wrote great poems with it, poems that projected my thoughts actions, my plans and my existence. I lost my pen. Have I lost all those thoughts? Deeds? Plans? Have I lost my existence? No I just lost my pen, big deal! Everyone loses a pen, so did I. 

But what am I without my pen? Speechless, inexpressive, mute. I know where to find it but I will not search there, because I am happy sulking that I lost my pen. 

Pen = ?

Fun!!!

Life has changed a lot from the days when I was a teen. Though that feeling hasn't gone yet in me, may be just coz I haven't married yet.? How far is life that we drag, truth is still missing or it is just too mystic for us to measure. Is life a cycle or a flow chart that eventually ends in graveyards(hearts of others). I call hearts graveyards because that is where we burry so many things, so many things I mean sooo many things. In real ppl are not buried in graves but in the hearts of other ones. Life is a race, life is a journey, life is a game, life is an emotion, etc..(as I döñt remember too many such quotes anyways).

These are phrases to motivate humans who are at a verge of depression or may be they are just fucked up with the illusion called society, exactly the way a bug is fixed in a program. But what exactly is life. We are born, we survive, we grow, we perish... Eureka we have finally concluded that life is a cycle kudos!!! Can you just shut the fuck up. I mean shut UUUup! Listen I was a kid and I had fun, I was a teen I fell in love, I was a man I married a woman, I am an adult I gave birth to a child and brought him up and meanwhile I also made money that I spent and I saved some, what for? Sorry my kid's future so r u sure that he is going to live forever.

O was a kid I had fun, I was a teen I fell in love(still I din't loose too many traits of having fun by then though) I was a man I married, fuck I am trapped in ppl, responsibilities, etiquettes not to miss on ego! (Definitely I lost the fun by now) I am an adult hahaha super hilarious discovery that I made or proclaimed the truth by now, now I am so rigid, so civilized(mechanical) so matured(does maturity mean becoming rigid? Emotionless? Selfish? Or just a machine that runs on auto pilot?) Oh boy, I pity u.

Fun what is this thing? Is ignorance fun? Or rigidity is maturity? Process of learning which we stop as soon as we become men as a result of our unnecessarily grown ego, desire to dominate, thirst to dictate, craving to know  that ppl want to listen to u, agree with u and do the way u say. In all this process though our ego is satisfied, our hearts parch. You know why because we forgot to have fun. And what the hell fun is? Fun is the happiness that comes as a result in the process of learning.

Eternity is in Love.

Liking you was like desiring divinity while dwelling in ignorance,

Cosmic conspiracy to conceal you from my conscience has concluded,

Collision of our souls exchanging energies and changing direction,

All towards a better life and better progression...

Illusion was the instrument, 

Intimacy was the inner voice, 

Indefinite our destiny incredible is this journey, 

Each moment of eagerness to meet, 

Each moment consumed together, 

Eternity is in Love and we are her expression!

సిరి సమస్య

బ్రహ్మ కడిగిన పాదము, బ్రహ్మము టాననె పాదము,
బ్రహ్మను కన్న పద్మము, పద్మావతి ని పత్నిగా పొందిన దైవము,
పరమపధము ప్రకటించిన జ్ఞానము,
పదము పై పరిశోధనలెరుగక ప్రజల కై పరుగెడుతున్న పాదము,
పవిట చిరు వేలున చిక్కగ చేతననొసగని జ్ఞాన పధము,
సిరి చేతుల వడి చర  చర  జారిన చీరకు నాధుని నైజము,
దుఃఖముల భక్తులకెచటనో రక్షణ కై నాధుడు కదిలెనొ,
శీల శిక్ష పతివ్రతలకు ప్రాప్తమో,
రక్షణకై నాధుడు కదిలెనొ,
మరి సిరి శీలము శ్రీనాధుకు చులకన?
గోవిందా అనే గోవుల గొంతులు విని అరవింద నీ ఆత్రములెరుగన,
ద్రౌపదికిచ్చిన్న చీరల సారెలు - మరచితివా ని పత్ని వలువలు...

సుక స్వగతం

ప్రకృతి కాంత నా కౌగిలి కోరగ,
పిల్ల గాలి నా పాదము తాకగ,
ఒక్కటై నేనొక్కటై నాలో నేనే రమిస్తూ, నాకై నేనే శ్రమిస్తు,
నడవన నట్టడవి నడుముని తడుముతూ,
రమణ రమణ నీ నామస్మరణ, రమితమీ ఆనందమమిత,
కాదనలేని జ్ఞాన ధార,
కవ్వించుచున్నదీ భాగవత సిర,
పరీక్ష ఎటువంటిదీ శిక్ష,
రక్ష రక్ష శ్రీ రామ రక్ష, శిక్ష కాదు ఇది దీక్ష,
రక్ష  పరీక్షిత నా దీక్ష నీకు మోక్ష

బతుకే భాగ్యం!!!

కూసంత ప్రేమ కోసం కోటి దీపాల కాంతి కళ్ళలో కుదించుకుని కొండంత కోరిక తో కూర్చుంటే,
ఎండమావుల ఎడబాట్లు యదార్ధమై,
ఎండిపోయిన ఏరు తీరీ ఎదురుచూపులనే ఎరుక ఎంత వింతో!
భావుకత భావోద్వేగాల భీబత్సం భ్రాంతి అని
భ్రమ భామ  బంధనాలు బద్దలు చేసుకు బైట పడ్డ బతుకే భాగ్యం!!!

Unrequitted

Happiness is within just like how light is in a candle within,
A flame is all it would need to ignite,
Love is the wax that melts in the wait,
Matter concealed life,
Life concealed mind,
mind concealed expectations,
Expectations concealed emotions,
Myriad emotions - Good, bad, ugly, great...
They come out when mingles on a date,
energies exchange, emotions interchange, thoughts combine, opinions collide,
Judgements made, egos invade, chaos created, peace perverted,
Mind cease the compound,
Despite the union inevitable,
Desire's perseverance interminable,
Candle's calling unrequited

Tomorrow Calling

Myriad thoughts stifled in the edifice of constraints, 

Breaking through the doors they runout for freedom, 

One cannot capture them in for too long,

For their very nature is to flow,

Like how the dawn of tomorrow is inevitable,

Sun will rise world will shine, 

A better day, a better thought, a better life, will see a better tomorrow...

Corpse I am

Great is God that he called us humans,
I am one! Corpse I am,
Death is what I am expected to achieve,
Birth is what I lurk for...
Life I see everywhere, I love killing, I kill everyone,
Hope is manmade and I am man...
I motivate myself with hope,
love is a lie I try on myself, I live having faith that I deserve one,

Corpse I am, I live out of a reason that I am expected to,
Ironical reality is that I have expectations from my own self,
I expect from others too...
I am dead as I no longer dream, I live reality with a dead face,
'Cheese' is what the world calls for - cheap I become each time I deliver,
Laugh comes from other's grief - truth hides in your own grave.

Supernova

Non existent existence intruding the inner-self’s core,

Mass of reality melting down to minimal,

Revealing the dynamics of truth,

Denying probabilities of fate,

Transforming time into space,

Proving zero is not equal to zero,

Life’s equation rewritten to amplify purpose,

A process put in place based on algorithms of society defied,

Fugitive flame of love escaped control to prove a point,

Supernova of the self repelled all the laws to bring the unique union with the Universe.

Dual to One.

This tense distance's persistent resistance,

Is diffused in deliberate determination to definite conjunction,

Doomed dawn denied dusk,

Involuntary penance Volunteered

Parched hearts to preach passion,

Love lived life in a new light emerging from the twilight,

Circumstances summoned to certain conviction,

Divine decision of destined union developed the dual to one.

Love with Rules

Unconditional condition is conditioned into concentrated concoction of reason and logic,

For those never applied to it is now bound in them,

Allied with freedom and free will it was omniscient,

Rules it had none, rooted deep in everyone,

It dwelled in disguise within men, 

It revealed itself through the one,

It felt true, it felt real, it became a noun with no form,

Then it meets men...

It is trapped in thoughts, in actions and in their rules,

Allies defeated, it is left on its own in the myriad arrows of thoughts,

It is struck, bleeding, claiming and proclaiming its existence,

How it existed, no one knew,

It’s still there hurt and wounded deep in the hearts, whispering sweetly ‘ I am Love... I am Love...’

ఆనంద విలాసము...

రెచ్చిపోయిన కణిక రగలగా రగలగా, 

రాపిడుల రవమయ్యి చెలరేగే ప్రణవము,

సృష్టి  బ్రహ్మాండములు పుట్టె ,

సుముహూర్తాలు చూడక జతలు కట్టె,

గతులు మారి పతులు పుట్టె ,

బతక తలంచి వాంఛ పుట్టె ,

చావెరుగని చేవతోడ చెరులు సంచరించె ,

కవ్వించగా కాలము నిగూడమయ్యి జ్ఞానము,

జగములుద్భవించెనిదియని ఆనంద విలాసము... 

స్వగర్వ భ్రమణమొంది పరము మాని ప్రగల్భముల పాలాయె ప్రభల వలన,

ధాతు భూతముల భజన తోడ భ్రమలు కూడి బ్రహ్మ తాననె  బంతులన్నీ,

పుట్టె  ప్రాణి కోటి నిమ్నమే నిజమని నిగమమెరుగనిదై,

అవతరించెను భ్రాంతి - ఆత్మనెరుగని ఆర్తి,

సాక్షి కాలము - కాదాయనుకొనెనిది అజ్ఞాన అవివేకముల పరిహాసము, 

ఈ ఆనంద విలాసము... 

ఆగలేదంతట 'ఈ గో'లలాట, 

మించి మంచి మహతులెంచి,

సృజనలావహించి పెంచి పోషించ సాగె ప్రభులమంచు,

వెలుగు జిలుగుల గోళముల కటికచీకటి కాంచి క్రోధమాగని కాలము కదలసాగె,

గతము పుట్టె స్వగతము గ్రహముల చుట్టబట్టె,

చరులకు ఇక చరిత్ర పుట్టె జ్ఞాపకాల జాడబట్టె,

కాలమేతెంచె నిక అని కాలము కాలాతీతుని కాళ్ళు బట్టె,

చూడలేకున్నాను నిన్ను తెలియని జగముల పై జాలినొందలేకున్నాను,

నీ  ప్రేరణ లేని సృష్టి సృష్టి కాదే , ని మన్నన లేని తృప్తి తృప్తి కాదే, కాడలేని గొప్ప నీదే, 

మాకును ఒకపరి దరిశనమియ్యరాదే ఆని వేడుకొనె కాలము, 

సత్యము అది స్వచ్ఛము అది నిగమము అది ప్రణవము,

ఇది మొదలు అసలు ఆనంద విలాసము...  

'గొప్పలకుబోయె గర్వగ్రాహులు ఈ గురుత్వగ్రహములు,

గొప్పజెప్పవయ్యా నీ గుట్టు విప్పవయ్య,

నిన్ను నీకు నువ్వు చూపవయ్య'.  

'కోరికలెరుగని నీకేలకలిగెనింత చింత,

పాలపుంతల మధ్యనున్నది ఒక మంచి ముంత,

సృజనకు నిత్తు స్వేచ్ఛ కాంత, పుట్టుగాక జీవి భవము చేత,

మనంబునొంది యుండు వాడు మనుజుడదిగో,

ఏ రాజ తాండవము సృజన చేశెనో బ్రాహ్మాండము,

ఆ రాజు సంకల్పమీ ఆనంద విలాసము...

Ananda Thandavam to be continued...

Now you too sleep.

Stories untold had gone to sleep in the graves of past , now you too sleep my sweetheart!

Expressions expelled from the facade of art, now you too sleep my sweetheart!

Much Admired beauty of the beast has worn betrayal's hat,  now you too sleep my sweetheart!

Night's rejection of light has only made it more beautiful tonight, now you too sleep my sweetheart!

Love's tired of longing and  heart pinned to the pendulum's banging, counting on the times it got hurt, now you too sleep my sweetheart!

Kaleidoscopic colours of life!

kaleidoscopic colors of life!

clear days and dark nights,

Love's treaty with its siblings,

To moonlight in all the flings,

Flying saucers falling flat,

dreams denied by destined fact,

fool's paradise flourished with foes,

yet the belief to be better echoes...

Centre Everywhere

A fall that will raise,

A journey derived from the destiny,

A plan to fail, that failed...

Peace seldom prevailed.

The end where it all begun,

There violence was vouched for due to intolorent silence in the harmony,

Inertia to be the new progress,

Life to be less lifeless,

Rules felt good, freedom forbidden,

It all starts there... inside the circle whose centre is everywhere...

Magic is over my love

In his favourite shoe called hope,

He reached the park of life,

Gaint wheels of holding hands,

Columbus of time taking him back and forth,

Trampoline of anxiety throbbing expectations up and down,

Rings thrown all over his wish list,

Show, he wanted to be part of the guest list,

She was the magician and love was the magic,

He became a prop who lost logic, 

Her spell of love struck him forever,

He still stands still though the magic is over...

GOT - Inspiron

A flair found they used and abused but it just flaired, 

Always they thought the hut was quiet,
The wind was light,
The sun was bright,

Realisation of night,
Winter was coming that was to fight,
Wanted an army of light from the woods of twilight, 

Fire was every lip's prayer,

Every heart melt for the heat of life, 

Cold was feared and god wasn't, breeze was the foe, and flair became the friend,

Opportunist bastards blamed men and the grateful flair prayed the winter not to end,
Selfish world and selfish nature,
Sustenance was the reason of every aspect to treason.

U & I - Revelation

Light that we saw together, 

Life that we seek forever,

Purpose is not joy,

Purpose is not try,

Purpose is not you and I,

I don't think we fell from sky,

Mortal minds that see the high,

Walk away from nature's lie,

Eternity is the womb all,

Truth is that there is no fall,

We dwell and dwell till the dark becomes light,

And the night becomes bright, 

We are the transformation twilight,

Mortal bonds become unreal,

We progress reliving as eternity's revelation...

Begun

Engrossed in evolution of life,
Finding destiny and the journey too,
In the journey of finding journey I live,
A torch bearer tomorrow,
I travel the time fro and to,
light is coming and clouds are its signs,
moments are the paths and the life is the path finder,
Harmony with myself, humility the instrument,
Hiding in the weakness of self,  I discover my strengths,
Energies synergize and purpose prevailed,
perpetuity of togetherness revealed,
It's the dawn, its the day,
A day with Sun, Moon and stars,
A day with snow, rain, night and twilight,
Descending deep into me,
The day of LOVE begun...

Goddess ART

An Exquisite expression that has manifested into mass to inspire the artist
So womanly that men cant resist
Humble yet firm, sweet but sharp, sensitive yet immobile to emotions, human yet demonstrates the divine calm
Quite but a dynamic dawn
Fine to those who restrain to their limits and disdain to those who dare to mischief
A trance that every artist dwells in
Glance that every mind melts in
Suspense in the obvious,
Thou art the nature, Love is your curator._Vipinsurya